Up on a Certain Level

Haven't been joining much MTTs the past days just Sit and Go and Cash Plays ranging from 100-300 bucks with an estimate of 10 players. So far, I've been playing a steady game and applying the lessons i've learned. Still have to work on my emotions though especially when I get to be the chip lead and then a bad beat or play comes along that makes my big stack slowly decrease. Still, made up for the losses in the past week and got an up by a couple of hundred bucks in my nonexistent bankroll. Haha.. nonexistent because I haven't really started making a record of my wins and losses yet. I just take a mental note of my record but I should make one soon.

turmoils of a girl poker player

everytime the two cards are dealt i get excited to take a look at the potential it offers... could this be a big one? or could this be the end for me?

the best plays i have ever made seem to be balanced by the worst plays i have to frustratingly bear with. like the time i was so afraid of making a wrong move that i missed out on making the right ones. or when it came down to me and an aggressive player who bet almost 3/4 my chips and i could not fold my freaking cards because i was too focused on my emotions and not on my play. not to mention the bad folds i have done like when someone raised on the flop and i had the second best pair so i folded and when the turn and river came i had the nuts... a full house! simply put i have had my share of mistakes and i have paid greatly for them... but i am still learning and until now trying to get over those stupid plays.